What sort of future do you want to build?

Over the last few months, I’ve become aware of a website that depicts a different take on a power exchange relationship.  It seems to have elements of the old Insex shoots, as well as others that are typical to BDSM themed websites, but there’s a new twist to the site that’s come into being over the last 3 weeks.

The owner of the site and his muse, have embarked on a more Owner/pet dynamic, instead of the Master/slave dynamic they’ve been following for the last couple of years.  A bit more ritualistic than the interactions have been, the muse has been put on a strict diet, consisting of no human food; just a food supplement called ‘Soylent’ and she (or it, the site seems to go back and forth on whether the sub is an object or not, hopefully in time they’ll be more clear on terminology) has a set or rules that she’s supposed to adhere to.  The owner of the site has started to advertise a bit on FetLife, through his account, attempting to drum up business, since any fetish website costs $$, from the equipment you’re using to the bandwidth you’re consuming, it all has to have a positive balance sheet, or else you’re not going to be in business very long.  Especially if you’re doing it basically on your own, which seems to be the case here.

I mentioned it to Miss and sent her some screenshots of a live feed video that I was watching on my tablet while I spoke to her.  She seemed interested and asked me rather pointedly if that was something I was A) turned on by, and B) interested in trying.  (FWIW, Miss wasn’t too interested in the food replacement, she has an idea of meals delivered in a different manner)

Talking about A is fairly straightforward.  Was I turned on by it?  Yes.  Was I turned on in a way that I wanted to ‘rub one out’?  No.  Why is that?  Well, I don’t know you dear reader, so I’m going to be keeping that one to myself.

B is a lot more complicated.  I’ve been in the lifestyle since the early 1980s.  Experienced a great deal, and fantasized about far more.  I was around when Insex first started, and even before that, I’d spent many a day glued to my (then antiquated) computer, downloading porn on a dial-up connection. (more than once racking up $1,000 long distance bills) BulletinBoardSystems (BBS’s) were my avenue of choice back then since really nothing else existed.  After that came CompuServe, a precursor to the Internet.  It was one of the Big 4 (the others being Prodigy, GEnie and everyone’s favorite to hate, America Online) and it took a little know-how to connect to one of these systems, the concept of “plug and play” didn’t exist, so generally the people you interacted with had a bit of education and were tech savvy.  Sure there were assholes and predators, but far fewer than one sees today.  But I’m getting off topic here.

Something like what’s going on at the website isn’t a fling sort of thing, it’s all inclusive.  It’s literally a lifestyle change.  At least if you’re dedicated to it, and want to do it correctly.  Too, you’re going up against legal ramifications, since it’d be classified as ‘consensual non-consent’ if the police were to get involved.  Right now, here if I was to be put on the spot, I really don’t know if I want that sort of situation.  I’m honestly not sure I could do it.  And one thing I definitely don’t want to do is either disappoint or do something with my Miss that might be considered ‘on a whim’.  I’d like to be able to do it right the first time.  Sure there are going to be mistakes, miscues, misunderstandings etc.  There are in all relationships, of all stripes.  But I’d like to keep them to a minimum if possible.  No two people ever do the BDSM lifestyle the same way.  Everyone has their own interpretation of it.  Your Kink Is Not My Kink.  And so on.

I’m sure I’ll be revisiting this as time goes on.