“Should I Stay or Should I Go?”

puppy and Miss had a conversation today, and Miss hit the nail on the head when she said that puppy was considering running after it.  The conversation ended up getting a little heated, and things were said that possibly shouldn’t have, but that’s what happens when tempers get a little railed, and emotions are high.

puppy doesn’t always have the best track record when it comes to relationships.  He’s been seriously in fewer than 10, and of them sexual partners in under 5.  For a puppy of 51 years, that’s probably getting down in the under 5% range of how it’s likely or <strong>supposed</strong> to go, puppy has friends both online and off that have had so many sexual partners they could field a football team.  Or several.  Not so with puppy.  His hormonal imbalance malady states that people with it are sort of, well uninterested in sex.  That pretty much fits puppy to a T.  It took him awhile in health class to understand the interaction between women and men.  The actual physical act of sex just didn’t make a lot of sense.  Too, puppy was taking artificial hormones at the time, and it had been suggested that he visit with a psychologist, but puppy didn’t see much reason to, so he didn’t.  Perhaps if he had, things might have turned out differently.  20-20 hindsight and all that.

Getting back to the results of the conversation, Miss had time to reflect after puppy went back to work, and puppy had time too, though he spent a lot of his time avoiding thinking about it, due to the fact that if he fixated on it he wouldn’t have  been able to get his paid work completed.  Upon finishing work he got an urgent message, Miss wanted to talk on the phone.  That message was followed up on Telegram (or preceded by) with several messages detailing how she was feeling, and that she felt she needed to talk.  Suffice it to say, puppy needed to speak to her as well.

The phone conversation was fairly typical for them both, but puppy felt the need to return to speaking first person to get his messages across, it just seemed a little easier to do so, and Miss was kind enough to let it go.  puppy regrets not asking permission to do so, kind of just rammed it through and the conversation continued.  Since Miss was still at work, there were a couple interruptions, but nothing terrible, and the conversation worked in both directions fairly well.  Miss and puppy seem to better understand one another, and puppy does hope that Miss understands just how important she is to him.  Even so, he doesn’t wish to jeopardize his relationship with either of the two important women in his life, Miss and his wife.  It’s a delicate balance, but puppy wants to make it work, and make it work long term.  Miss says that she’s certain this is all going to come to both of them, and it’s going to be wonderful.  puppy wants it to be, but it’s going to be a while in the making.  A bond is growing, and needs to be nurtured and fed, so it will grow appropriately.

puppy is starting to ramble, so it’s about time to say good night and go to bed.  puppy stayed up very late last night, was working on his journal design, and didn’t notice the time getting away from him.  Finally managed to go to bed around 1 am.  Since he has to be to work rather early tomorrow morning, that can’t be repeated.